within us

噢，親愛的母親
看看妳做的一切
妳曾心愛而卻遺棄的兒子
到底為何而生？

噢，親愛的母親
為何我是這樣的怪胎
為何我無法成為一個像樣的男人
到底我出生是為了什麼？

我想這一切都是妳害的
所有的恥辱
所有的熬煎與苦楚
連鏡子也不願面對的我
自鄙自欺自暴自棄

你說母親了解你擁有無暇的心靈
美如薔薇嬌豔欲滴
你說就讓它成長吧
然而它卻長得如此暗沉醜陋

噢，親愛的母親
我怨妳把這鮮活的生命賜給你悲慘的兒子
我究竟為何要降生？

噢，親愛的母親
我如此愛妳
請原諒來自我靈魂深處的憤懣
沒有妳我將孤絕無助
囚困在這副朽壞的軀殼之中
我才是那個永遠受咒詛之人

噢，我親愛的母親
這不幸像皮膚上一道痛苦的印記
一個沉重不已的禁忌之罪
而我的錯誤已經無可挽回
而妳的錯誤就是相信
哀慟在仁慈以先
渴求顯露在愛憐之前

你說母親知道你的美麗心靈
美如薔薇嬌豔欲滴
你說就讓它茁壯吧
然而它卻變得如此軟弱黑暗
使我背你而去

妳說至少母親明白你有最美的心靈
美如薔薇嬌豔欲滴
妳說就讓它綻放吧

噢，親愛的母親
請讓我脫離這一切





Oh mother dear
Look what you've done
To your forlorn and once beloved son
Why was I born at all?

Oh mother dear
I'm such a freak
A mutant man, a woman underneath
Why was I born at all?

It's you I blame for all the shame
This anguish and this aching
The mirror turned against the wall
Myself despised, forsaken

You say, "Beauty is within us, your mother knows."
"There's a beauty that's within us, just like a rose."
You say, "Beauty is within us, so let it grow."
But it's grown so dark and ugly

Oh mother dear
I curse you so
For breathing life into your wretched son
Why were you born at all?

Oh mother dear
I love you so
Oh please forgive this anger in my soul
Without you I'm alone

It's me who's been eternally damned
Trapped inside this cage, a ruined man
All damaged and depraved

Oh mother dear
This misery
Has settled like a stain upon my skin
- a vast unspoken sin

And my mistake is much too late
But your mistake was trusting
That out of grief, a goodness comes
And love comes out of lusting

You say, "Beauty is within us, your mother knows."
"There's a beauty that's within us, just like a rose."
You say, "Beauty is within us, so let it grow."
But it's grown so dark
I can not see you anymore

"Oh beauty is within us, mother knows."
"Oh beauty is within us, like a rose."
"Oh beauty is within us, let it grow."
"Oh mother dear, let me out of here!"





Vocal: Scott Matthew
Words: Chris Mosdell
Music: Yoko Kanno




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Ghost In The Shell　Stand Alone Complex

-The Laughing Man

Episode 2: Testation





神造人；是否無論外表如何醜陋，心靈都可以美好如花？
人造人造人；是否我住進別的身體你會依然愛我？


叛變的思考戰車拉開的第一幕。早逝的研究員將自己的一部分植入到武裝的巨大機械中，衝破層層阻礙，奮不顧身，只為了回家，只為了當面對著自己的雙親說，看看我，父親，看看我，母親，我做到了。


我們難以窺探在那脆弱的身體之中到底是怎樣的一顆鋼鐵之心，那無堅不摧的外表之下是怎樣的一朵人性之花在盛開。理性與感性重疊的瞬間閃過他一整個人生，所有的掙扎、矛盾、怨忿、偏執、罪愆、寬恕、所有的回憶，而後是無盡的執問，無盡的遺憾與沉默。